At the Hospital…
6th June 2025 – 14.14
I spoke with my doctor and it’s an emergency. My iron and haemoglobin levels are too low for tablets to work. I need it directly in the jugular, either via blood transfusion or iron infusion.
I’m at Good Hope Hospital. I always wrote and spoke with you during my appointments. It was so lovely. I can’t help but think of you, but then I always do {} xxx
I saw lots of bunnies on my way in. I was as excited as I was when I saw them with you. I’m sorry you couldn’t see them due to driving. I imagine you’ll be on your way home and will be passing them as well. I also said hello and waved goodbye. So near and yet so far…
19.10
It’s going to be a long night. I had another blood test. There’s no further drop in my hemoglobin level, which is great. I’m waiting for the doctor, who should be here in about four hours. I should get the transfusion then. The cannula is waiting in my arm. I don’t think we’ll get home until about 01.00.
Everyone is so wonderful. I couldn’t sit in the waiting area for six hours, I needed to lie down. They very kindly moved me to a lovely quiet room with a bed, so that I could lie down. They’re angels. They gave me something to eat. The wedges were delicious.
I got so excited when I was offered some custard creams or bourbons. She saw my face light up and gave me both. I told her I hadn’t had any since I was little. They remind me of my mum and our biscuit cupboard. Being in the hospital today has reminded me of my mum. There have been moments where I felt frail, and I remember her frailty as well.
I hope you’re now happily settling in with totp. I imagine you might be shattered. Take it gently and rest, rest and rest my precious sweetheart. Enjoy the most beautifully chilled and relaxing evening. Hug hug, kiss kiss {} xxx
I’m really struggling with my energy. I’ll see you tomorrow my lovely {} xxxx
7th June 2025
Good evening my most beautiful and precious starshine,
I really hope you’re okay my lovely, you’re taking things gently and enjoying a more restful day. I imagine you must be enjoying your fabulous music party with Craig {} xxx
I was right about getting home at 01.00. I needed to go back today for the iron infusion. For safety reasons, in case we have a reaction to it, it needs to be done during the day.
Iron infusion was the preferred choice to the blood because the blood would just wash away with time. The iron would be magic for the haemoglobin. The aim is to get my levels normal and stable.
I was extremely worried because I woke up to a crash, but oxygen got me going, along with the adrenaline.
I had another lovely experience and saw some of the wonderful staff from yesterday. I don’t know how they do it. They have twelve-hour shifts and work so hard. They need an increase pay and a reduction of hours. They really are angels, so lovely, caring and understanding.
My head was much clearer and I had more energy afterwards, similar to oxygen. I need to have another infusion next week, then a blood test six weeks later to see how it is.
We had pizza when we got back and I fell asleep. The adrenaline is going. It’s rest and recharge until next week’s appointment.
I imagine you have something superb for dinner. Thoroughly enjoy every delicious mouthful for me too {} xx I hope medicine will be joining you.
I’m terrible, I had a craving for some medicine after the pizza, but didn’t think it was wise after just having the infusion.
I do miss The Doctor today. Take it nice and gently, and restfully my lovely. I hope you’ll be in your fabulous studio. Have tons of fun nourishing your precious heart for me {} xxx
I love you and I’m hugging you super tightly with my new iron arms {} xxxx
22.22
I’ve just seen the magnificent moon. It has a warm golden glow tonight. I hope you’re enjoying its alluring beauty as well. I love you so much {} xxxx
22.33
This live version of Golden by Harry Styles just came to mind {} xxx