Autumn Leaves…
17th September 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It’s 23.23. Autumn Leaves by Edith Piaf popped up. It’s made me cry. I remember you sending it to me. It’s the first time I heard it. It’s so beautiful and incredibly moving. I do miss you most of all {} xxx
You sent it in the evening after I had my head MRI scan, and you wished me good night xxx
I have an overwhelming need to say I’m sorry. I truly am {} xxx
I know February and March couldn’t have been any other way because of my bad trigger, but I’m so sorry I couldn’t have a conversation with you. The terror really did take over in February. It was terror, I can see it now. I didn’t see you, I was seeing my dad because of the trigger. I had no control over it, I honestly didn’t. I’m truly and deeply sorry, I really am. Please forgive me. I never meant to hurt you in any way {} xxx
It’s hitting me right now. It’s just as painful. I wish I could go back and put it right. I can’t tell you how much I wish I could hug you {} I really do hope you’re okay my lovely. I really do {} xxx
Sleep restfully and peacefully my precious angel. Please have the sweetest of dreams for both of us. I love you {} xxxx