Beautiful Day…
14th June 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
I love you {} xxx I really hope you’re okay my lovely, and you’re thoroughly enjoying a gorgeous day with sunshine. I know you’ll be busy, but I hope you’ve had pockets of rest along with lots of fun. I hope this weekend is extra special, and filled with an abundance of love, joy, excitement and pampering.
Beautiful Day by U2 comes to mind. I remember you sending it to me when I was struggling, and you really did brighten my day. You were that friend, and I really do hope we can have that mutual friendship again {} xx
Green Onions popped up twice on my Twitter feed first thing. I did find it comforting especially before my hospital appointment. I always remember your fantastic version. Booker T with Daryl Hall was one of the versions. I remember sending this one to you. It’s so cool.
I had my second iron infusion. Fingers crossed it’ll get to where it should be in about six weeks, along with the haemoglobin. Iron levels have increased to about a quarter of the amount it needs to increase by. The saline does give me a boost, and I actually got to a resting state while I was there. My heart rate got down to the sixties. It felt like a miracle. Once again, they’re so lovely. My bed was ready for me to lie down on.
I also spoke with the doctor about the scan next week. There’ll be a pelvic ultrasound, and then they’ll insert a probe for a further investigation. This is the part that concerns me. I told the doctor about my history of sexual abuse and my concern about being triggered. I am at the core of everything so the chances of being triggered is extremely high.
She was so lovely and said I could go in before the scan for a sedative, and then I can have an anaesthetic for the procedure. It’s now in my notes. This has put my mind at ease.
I went in the garden when we got back, and lay down on the grass with the help of a blanket and a cushion. It’s the first time in three years. It was so wonderful feeling the warmth of the sunshine and saying hello to the plants. Some have sadly gone, but many are doing well without me, which was a relief. There were two new additions which have made their way there.
It’s been a beautiful afternoon. I had some delicious Malbec this time. I haven’t lost my senses and can still enjoy it fully. That child filled with excitement and wonder is still there. She just gets a bit muted from time to time. I never want to lose her.
I hope you’re nourishing your precious heart and making it very happy as well. I hope you’re enjoying a brilliant music night with some red and your fabulous meal. Thoroughly enjoy every beautiful moment for me too my sweet angel {} xxx
I’m thinking of you and I love you very much. Rest and then sleep well with the sweetest of dreams for both of us. Hug, hug, kiss, kiss {} xxxx
I know I’ll be paying for today tomorrow. I am feeling it now, but the crash will be worth it. I’d love to know how you are and how your day has been. Your magical garden must be blooming beautifully as well. Take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my lovely. I wish I could hug you {} xxx