Delights in the Night Sky…
13th August 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It’s 04.01. I hope you’re sleeping soundly with the sweetest of dreams my lovely. I really hope you’re okay and you’re able to enjoy the beautiful weather. I hope so {} xxx
I’m also keeping everything crossed you’ve managed to get a glimpse of the Perseid meteor shower, although there still plenty of time. I woke up at 02.02 and looked to see if I could see any signs of it. I was greeted instead by Moon and Saturn, who were shining gloriously. I then looked out of the back room window, and couldn’t see any signs either.
I was excited about seeing Moon and Saturn, a tried to find them with the telescope. I found the Moon, but it was out of focus. I completely forgot what I needed to do to get it in focus. It didn’t help that I was half asleep and it was dark. My body was screaming to lie down after about 15 minutes. I wish I could be upright for longer.
I only got the eye piece working the other day. That was a huge thing. I’m learning. I needed the extension tube, and I took the lens out of the Barlow lens to make a further extension tube. It worked. I was so excited. The camera is easier to use and only needs the flattener to work. I’m keeping everything as simple as I can.
It was wonderful and exciting seeing these two through it. The only thing I hadn’t anticipated was the image being upside down and inverted. Getting to know the telescope during the day is much easier.
I will continue writing later. My brain is slowing down. I think I can fall asleep. Continue sleeping well, restfully and peacefully my lovely. Sweet dreams {} xxx
15.43
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
I really do hope you’re still free, even if it’s just for today. It’s so beautiful and nice to have the gentle breeze coming in. It’s perfect BBQ weather.
Back to last night. I couldn’t get back to sleep so I returned to the back room to look for the meteor shower. I saw a tiny glimmer of light that disappeared very quickly. I wondered if it was a meteor or if it was just wishful thinking. I hope it’s the former. That would be my very first sighting.
Photography in general is something that nourishes my soul. I do love it. It’s the magic of the unexpected. I am enjoying slowly getting to know the telescope. I am at my absolute limit, but I couldn’t have done this a year ago. I couldn’t have looked after the plants either. My brain is working better and I do have a bit more energy. The infusions completely calming my autonomic nervous system was temporary, but it’s still better than before, and despite last night, I’m getting restful sleep.
I do wonder if unlocking the core wounds and everything that goes with it, has helped to release a little bit of energy. A lot of energy would be needed to repress it, so I imagine it has. I just wish it didn’t happen in the way it did {} xxx I’m still repressing a lot, especially with my therapist being away for a few weeks. I will be glad to see her next week.
I am managing to come out of the distressed crisis states. It’s not graceful but I can self-soothe a bit better than before. The telescope and my camera are helping greatly, and so are the plants. Writing these letters to you are helping as well, but I really wish I could speak with you directly {} xxx
I am slowly getting to know myself. All these things were already there, but I didn’t realise the significance of them. I discounted a lot of the things I could do and the things I love. I was completely myself with you. The jigsaw came to mind today. It’s been a while. I hope I can start one soon. Little by little.
I heard Tape Bowing Ensemble’s Open Reel Ensemble today. I hope you enjoy it too my lovely {} xx It reminded me of the experimental music concerts I went to at the Birmingham Conservatoire. I know I caught Covid at The Lab, but I don’t regret going because I loved it. I think you would’ve loved the experimental music as well.
I spent a lot of time there in my final year, and I experienced so many different things, including the sublime Kora. Everything was exciting and joyous. I’m so happy my last concert was there {} xxx
I’m trying to catch up with messages at the moment. With everything, it’s been close to impossible this year. I’m so thankful everyone is so lovely and understanding. I need to try and get most of them done before my medical appointments start.
I have my lung X-ray in two weeks, and I see my respiratory consultant at the end of September. I also hope to see the gynaecologist in October. Cardiologist sadly needs to wait a little bit longer.
It’s almost a year… It’s 17.17.
Take the greatest care of yourself my precious sweetheart and take it very gently. Enjoy the most beautiful, relaxing and restful evening, dreaming the night away in your magical garden with sunshine {} xxx
The clear sky will make it perfect for the celestial treats as well. Thoroughly enjoy every magic moment for me too. I love you and I’m hugging you extremely tightly with lots of kisses {} xxxx