Help…
9th February 2026
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine {} xxx
How are you my lovely? How was your weekend? I hope you’re keeping really well, and you thoroughly enjoyed a fabulous, fun and restful weekend. I was thinking of you with the rugby.
Italy did brilliantly didn’t they?!! You must’ve been so happy. I imagine it was a very exciting match, especially with it being so close. I did have a quick peek. I did smile when I saw Scotland’s lovely lilac kit.
It’s 15:15, I imagine you might be enjoying your beautiful relaxing moment with coffee. Thoroughly enjoy every heavenly sip for me too {} xx I hope you’re having a really good day. I imagine it will be busier this week. Just four more days.
Back to the rugby. It’s just wonderful knowing you’re watching it, and loving it. I do find it comforting as well. I wrote this to you on Thursday night, with Ireland vs France:
My heart sank when I saw the score during half time. I really hope you’re okay my lovely {}
I said “yes” and raised my fist when I saw they scored 7 points, and then again at 21:36 when they were at 14. I was beaming and getting excited for you too. You must be at the edge of your seat. I hope medicine is holding your hand firmly {} xxx
I was keeping my fingers crossed for the penalty. What was the cheap shot by Ryan? I felt gutted with France’s final score. I really do hope you’re okay my lovely. Despite the score, I really hope you enjoyed the game. I imagine you did. I’m hugging you tightly.
Sleep well and restfully my lovely, with sweet dreams for you and for me {} xxxx
Are you watching the Winter Olympics? I thought you might be. I hope you’re thoroughly enjoying it if you are.
I have something just for you xx It’s Burt Bacharach talking about composing the perfect song, with Magnus Magnusson. I think it’s lovely. I hope you enjoy it as well my beautiful sweetheart {} xxx
I really hope you have fun working on your own compositions. I remember you starting one years ago. I would love to know how it developed. I always forgot to ask…
I’m struggling really badly, and my stress levels regarding my face cleanser have gone up again. I don’t know if the milk cleansers have gone off, but one isn’t working. I have three from the same batch. I hope the later batch works. It would give me three months, or a bit longer if I occasionally washed my face once a day.
I’m really stuck. My poor face is very angry, sore and bumpy. I can’t find anything that doesn’t irritate. The Neal’s Yard cleanser was absolutely perfect for my skin. It worked happily with my oil.
I’m really worried in case I can’t use anything at all. My face is going to look awful, and it’ll be extremely painful as well. It’s both frustrating and distressing.
Liron’s going to take care of making a cleanser, but it can take months or more. I really wish I could help make it. I can only assist by sorting the ingredients, and getting information about formulas and recipes. I wish I wasn’t so ill.
Deep Purple’s brilliant cover of Help popped up a few days ago. The lyrics really hit home this time. I remember sending it to you when I first came across it. I remember you telling me how it’s someone’s favourite band.
It’s not just the cleanser that’s affecting me badly, it’s therapy as well. Liron says I look lost. I do feel it. I feel like I’m having a bit of a break down, but this would be normal.
It also feels like I’m purging at the moment, and despite struggling with my my brain and energy, writing is medicine. I’m like a bus, there are four letters that follow this. It does help me sort through my swirling thoughts, and make some sense of it all. The realisations lead me to a big breakthrough in therapy on Thursday.
Paul Weller singing Glad Times on Jools also popped up. I remember you sending it to me the day after. It’ll be five years in March. It really doesn’t feel that long ago. What happened? {} xxx
I desperately need to rest properly tonight. I’m keeping everything crossed I can get my hair cut on Wednesday.
I almost forgot, I saw a trailer for a film called The Shape of Water. I couldn’t help but think of The War Between the Land and the Sea. I wondered if they got a little bit of inspiration from the film. What do you think?
It’s now 17:17. I hope you’re happily home, or will be very soon. I really do hope the traffic’s not too bad.
Once everything is done, completely switch off, relax, and take it nice and gently. If you spend time in your fabulous studio, have tons of fun for me too. I imagine you’re playing some amazing songs, and you sound absolutely brilliant {} xx
Enjoy the most gorgeous, restful and delicious evening my lovely. As always, give yourself lots of love and care for me {} xxx
I am thinking of you, and I’m sending you all my love overflowing with magical healing bear hugs and kisses. Rest well my precious starshine, with lots of beautiful delights {} xxxx
I only used my healing cleanser this morning, and my skin is already starting to heal. It is magic. I hope I’ll be able to find it again, just like you. I hope so. I hope everything will be okay, and there might be a chance… {} xxx