Here’s Paul Just for You…
21st May 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
I hope you’re keeping really well and having a good start to the week. I imagine you’re incredibly busy. I know you will be for the next month. I’m so sorry. I really do hope you’re okay. Your much needed break in two days is perfectly timed {} xxx
I have something special for you to listen to later. It’s Paul Weller’s cover of Lawdy Rolla. It sounds fantastic. I hope you enjoy it later my lovely {} xx His new album Find El Dorado will be released on 25th July. I can’t wait. I imagine you’re really looking forward to it as well. I’m just upset we won’t be able to enjoy it together.
It’s the first time my therapist has seen me light up and beam with joy since November. It was when I told her how I felt seeing your photos and hearing you sing again {} xxx I listened to you singing Old Father Tyme for the first time last night. It was so lovely and I still find it comforting. I’m so happy I can hear you sing and play again.
CMAT singing Running/Planning on Jools popped up. I’m not going to send it to you in case you haven’t seen it yet. She’s brilliant live. I’m going to send you The Cramps Goo Goo Muck instead. It’s the first time I’ve heard it. It’s so cool.
Josef Salvat’s I’m Sorry also popped up. I sent it to you a while back. It’s a great song and very catchy, you thought so too. Hearing him sing the word “failing” reminded me of you. I think you’re the first person I know, who uses that word when something hasn’t gone to plan. I think I’ve only personally heard it in the context of exams and tests.
I know the hurt wasn’t intentional. It’s almost gone now. I wish I could hug you {} Triggers are a bastard aren’t they? They’re a double-edged sword.
I’m struggling badly. Not sleeping well is making the Long COVID symptoms and my emotions worse. I can’t control it. My brain’s in charge at the moment. Sleeping tablets are failing. I don’t know why. I really do need to get my blood tested, hopefully next week. My hair’s desperate for a cut as well. I’m keeping everything crossed I can get to the appointment in two weeks.
I really do hope you’re sleeping well, restfully and peacefully my lovely. I imagine your hair’s looking fabulous as always {} xx
Caring for the plants is helping me. It is the need to care and love. The blue star fern needs some TLC. I’ve pruned them for the first time to promote growth, but they’re looking a bit sad and straggly at the moment. I’m hoping they’ll have a chance to recover and flourish over the next year. Fingers crossed.
I just discovered a watering tip. Adding just a drop of API Stress Coat Aquarium Water Conditioner to a litre of water, and letting it stand for half an hour before watering, is supposed to help prevent the leaves going crisp and brown around the edges. It removes the harmful chemicals in the tap water. I have a bottle arriving today.
I need to be able to care for myself in the same way as I’m caring for the plants. Little by little.
Thoroughly enjoy your beautiful lunch and much needed quiet moment my lovely. I hope the afternoon flies by so you can drive home with Sun. They’re having a good rest at the moment.
Take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my precious sweetheart. I’m thinking of you and love you so much. I’m giving you the biggest and tightest of magical healing and protective bear hugs and kisses {} xxxx
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Paul’s dropped another treat for us, Pinball. The saxophonist Jacko Peake is brilliant in both.
Take it gently my lovely, and enjoy the most beautiful, sunny, relaxing and restful evening for me too {} xxx