His Enlightening Materials…
29th October 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
How are you my lovely? How has your day been? I really hope you’re okay, and you’re enjoying another beautiful and joyful day {} xxx I imagine you’ll be spending time in your magical garden as well. They must be over the moon to see you and have some of your special TLC.
It’s National Cat Day today. Apparently, it’s also Black Cat Day on the 27th of October. They’re extra special. They must be very content and feeling like they’ve got the best cream in the world… They have {} xx
You’re also going to be very happy with this one. You might already know this, but just in case. The Who released My Generation on this day in 1965. They wanted to give you the warmest welcome {} xx Here is The Who performing it on The Smothers Brothers Comedy Hour. It is funny. I imagine you know it extremely well.
I couldn’t stop watching His Dark Materials, but I had to pause it when I got to the final episode. I just didn’t want the magnificent adventure to end. I imagine you might be feeling the same way with the new chapter of Lyra’s life. I imagine it’s brilliant.
I didn’t expect to be on such an emotional rollercoaster whilst watching it. I was in tears a number of times. Philip covered every single facet of what it is and means to be human, as well as living in this world with everything it entails. It’s quite astonishing. I wish I could speak with you directly. I’d love to know your thoughts about it {} xxx
There were so many moving and heartbreaking moments. I resonated with a lot of it, and it helped me connect with my own feelings. A lot tied in with what I’m going through at the moment.
You were with me throughout the amazing adventure. The wonderful thing is, when I finished watching it, I got up to close the curtains and was greeted by the beautiful moon. They were shining behind the branches. I said hello to you {} xxx I haven’t seen moon for a long time. They timed it perfectly. I imagine you’ve loved seeing their radiant glow as well.
Here is Hania Rani, Manchester Collective, Jack Wyllie and Hugh Tieppo-Brunt playing Non Fiction – IV. Semplice. It also takes us on a journey of the unknown. I hope you thoroughly enjoy it my precious angel {} xxx
I sadly don’t have the energy to continue writing. My brain is struggling badly now. It’s 20:50. I want to post what I have, and hopefully continue soon. Fingers crossed I’ll finish this letter by the weekend. Please reload {} xx
In the meantime, take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my precious starshine. Enjoy the rest of your gorgeous evening with lots of chilling, relaxation and heavenly treats. Then sleep well and blissfully, with sweet dreams for you and for me {} xxx
I love you so much and I’m hugging you like the very last time, with lots of kisses and magic healing wishes. Rest and sleep well my lovely {} xxxx It’s 21:21.
30th October 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It was on this day 25 years ago, that U2 released All That You Can’t Leave Behind. Here’s A Beautiful Day just for you my lovely. It’s a beautiful month. It’s 15:15. {} xxx
I sadly can’t write. I’m in a bad crash and I have therapy in an hour.
I hope despite the gloom outside, your precious heart is beaming with love and sunshine. I really hope you’re okay my precious angel {} xxx
I love you and I’m hugging you through my phone {} xxxx
31st October 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It’s 15:15. I just found out that it’s Johnny Marr’s birthday today. The stars really did come out just for you my lovely, and this is the perfect way to end this very special and magical month {} xxx
I think this is a wonderful clip about This Charming Man, from I’m In A Rock ‘n’ Roll Band. It’s lovely when they say he’s a “one man orchestra, painting colour and texture”. It made me think of you {} xx Here’s The Speed of Love just for you. I love you and I hug you {} xxxx
Please take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my precious angel, with lots of love and care for me. I’ll write and finally finish this letter as soon as I can {} xxx I’m struggling with the crash.
It’s 16:21. Someone posted that it was on this day in 1983, that The Smith’s released This Charming Man. Absolutely perfect, just like you!! {} xxx
1st November 2025
I miss you so much {} xxx It’s hitting me hard this morning. I really do hope you’re okay my lovely. I hope so {} xxxx
It’s 15:15. I wish I could write to you directly. I really do. I wish we could speak again. I love you and I hug you {} xxx
2nd November 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
I hope I can finish this tonight, so that I can send it to you, along with my earlier letter.
I really wanted to tell you about the scenes that struck a chord, in His Dark Materials. Firstly, Asriel’s dismissive and cold attitude towards Lyra hit a lot harder than before. In this respect he reminded me of my dad. I couldn’t help but think that he didn’t deserve to have her as his daughter. He was incapable of being a father, he was too self-absorbed, but he was capable of loving someone. He loved Mrs Coulter.
Mrs Coulter saying that Asriel’s not a match for Metatron, when Xaphania tells her that a mortal who hasn’t confronted their own darkness, would be like a helpless child in front of him, spoke volumes.
This scene also made me think about myself. I too feel like a helpless child in my triggered states, but this is also because I haven’t fully faced my own darkness. I am starting to face it now though. I really hope it will help take away, or reduce that feeling of helplessness.
In the same scene Mrs Coulter apologises to Golden Monkey for sending them away, and realising it was to stop her from feeling what she couldn’t bear. She thought she was the strong one, but realised it was Golden Monkey who was the strong one. At that moment I wondered if the daemon represented our inner child. I initially thought they might represent the soul, the spirit. Perhaps it’s both or something else.
How do you see the daemons? I’d love to hear your thoughts.
I think about myself, and how I’ve neglected my inner child. She’s been carrying all the pain, but then she’s also the playful one, full of wonder and excitement. I’ve tried my best to ignore and run away from her pain, until now. Yes, she is the strong one.
Something is shifting though. During my last session, when I talked about how my family thought I didn’t care that my mum had died, unexpected words came to mind, “How dare they”. That’s the very first time I spoke back in my mind. This is a big step in the right direction.
I found it touching to see Mrs Coulter feeling, and showing her love and affection towards Lyra, like when she held her, and when she apologised to Lyra for putting her back to sleep. It’s only really during Mrs Coulter’s final scene’s that we get a glimpse of her inner turmoil. She does love Lyra and that deep bond is there.
It was moving when she said how she felt needy and helpless, when she saw Lyra’s disdain towards her, which in turn made her feel weak. We could see her pain. In that respect it was easier for her to keep her distance. It’s never clear cut is it? Despite this, she did do everything she could to protect Lyra and keep her safe.
I think it’s such a shame and incredibly sad, that Lyra never kneew how her mum felt about her, and what she did for her. I feel it would help Lyra to know these things. To know that, despite being abandoned, she was deeply loved by her mother.
The other scenes that were extremely moving were between Mrs Coulter and Will. When she talks about the special bond between a mother and her child, and vice versa, whether it’s acknowledged and felt or not. This is something I’ll never experience from a mother’s perspective, but I have an idea because of how it was with my mum.
The other scene was when Will refuses to take her with him and Lyra. It’s when she asks if he disposes people like he did with his mother. He never abandoned her, but the pain, guilt and shame would naturally be there, as well as missing her. I thought the symbolism of the sword cracking, when he got in touch with his pain for his mum and later Lyra, was heartbreakingly beautiful. Our hearts do shatter.
The scene where Lyra reunited with Pan was also poignant. It’s not surprising he was tentative and apprehensive about going back to her. The fear of being abandoned again would be there, as well as the pain. They both gave each other the reassurance they needed, which was lovely.
I really hope it will be okay my lovely, I really do, but again, I do understand if you don’t want to resume our friendship {} xxx
I love you and I’m hugging you with all heart {} xxxx