It’s Going to Be Okay…
23rd May 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
I am untangling you from all the mess, I really am. There are moments I have complete clarity. Last night was one of them. The pain has always been there waiting for that trigger. I can’t tell you how deeply sorry and sad I am that it was you, and that I was yours. Neither of us had any control over this, but it’s now easy to see the mechanisms in hindsight. I really do hope you’re okay my lovely, I really do {} xxx
I honestly think it’s going to be okay. I feel hopeful. I need to go through this in order to heal from my past. I see this now. What happened in November accelerated it because it took me to my core wounds and all the pain.
I didn’t even know I needed to be rescued. I’ve always been quite independent, but it was an unconscious need. It all makes sense now. My inner child needs me to rescue her and take care of her.
I really do feel it can be okay with us again, once I’ve worked on everything. I just need time. I hope we can resume our precious friendship once this is over, if you’d like to. I hope so {} xxx
You must be really looking forward to your holiday now. You just have a couple of hours to go and then you’re as free as a red kite. Sun’s over the moon for you too {} xx
Here’s another new song from Pulp, Got to Have Love. I hope you enjoy later my precious sweetheart {} xx I’d love to know what you think of their new songs. I’m really looking forward to their album in two weeks.
Did you know Brian Eno created the Windows 95 chime? I just found out. Wow!
Zoe, another baby, arrived a few weeks ago. She had a tiny flower bud. She finally said hello this morning and is in her full glory. It really is wonderful seeing the baby plants grow.
Take the greatest care of yourself my precious sweetheart, and take it gently. Enjoy the most fabulous start to your holiday, with all the things you love. I hope you’ll be doing something very special. Make your beautiful heart sing, and give yourself lots of love, care, rest and relaxation for me too {} xxx
I love you and I’m hugging you super tightly. My love, hugs and kisses will stay with you {} xxxx