It’s Goodnight From Phone…
10th November 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
How are you my lovely? I really do hope you’re okay, and you’re having a really good start to the week. I hope everything’s going extremely well and it’s a nice busy. I hope coffee’s looking after you {} xxx
I completely forgot it was the rugby on Saturday. I bet you loved every single minute of it, and you were jumping for joy with the results. I was so happy for you when I saw the scores. You’ll be able to thoroughly enjoy it this weekend as well, and I’m keeping everything crossed you’ll be celebrating with medicine once again.
I imagine you were very busy yesterday. I really do hope you didn’t finish too late, and you managed to get some rest in the evening. I hope you slept well {} xx
It’s 16:10 and it’s started to rain, but some of the clouds are golden with the setting sun. It’s so beautiful. I noticed the colour’s slightly different over the last week, it’s paler but just as striking. For me, it has an impending feel to it.
I’m keeping everything crossed it stops raining by the time you leave. Get home safely and quickly my precious sweetheart {} xx It’s 16:16.
I’m struggling extremely badly. Writing’s much harder, but I wanted to say hello before I say goodbye to this phone. I remembered when I accidentally dropped my last phone, smashing the screen. I was expecting to be apart from it for up to a week. It meant I couldn’t speak with you, and that was awful. I knew I was going to really miss you.
You were at work when I told you, and you sent me a piece by Dave Brubeck. I couldn’t remember what it was. I knew it wasn’t Koto Song, but I remembered Katsushika Hokusai’s paintings being in the video. I searched but couldn’t find it. I finally went to my favourites list, and there it was happily waiting for me. It’s the sublime and melancholic Fujiyama. Thank you so much my lovely {} xxx
I could never imagine not speaking with you, or you not being in my life, and now it’s almost a year. It didn’t feel like we really spoke when we had the very brief contact. I can’t tell you how deeply sorry and sad I am that I was severely triggered. I wish I wasn’t. I had no control over it. I was also in pieces… I’m so sorry {}
I wish I had the energy to write. I want to tell you about Frankenstein and my realisations. I watched it yesterday. I also want to tell you about my surgery and its relation to my past. I started writing a few days after surgery, but haven’t been able to finish it. I need more energy. I will as soon as I can. They are big realisations.
Despite my crash, it was wonderful speaking with my occupational therapist this morning. She’s so lovely. I couldn’t shut up. Despite being in solitude in this room, there’s so much that’s happening, especially internally.
I am slowly getting there, and I’m keeping everything crossed that I will be able to say hello to you directly, in the not too distant future. I really hope so {} xxx I want to put these letters into another format for you, so that they’re more tangible. Hopefully I’ll have the energy to start early next year. I really do need more energy.
Phone wants to say how much they’ve loved speaking with you, laughing with you and having fun with you. You’ve helped keep them going as well. They’re going to miss you with all their chips {} xxx
It’s 17:17. I really hope you’re happily home, or will be very soon. Once everything is done, sit back, relax and enjoy chilling with something wonderful.
That reminds me, How Are You? was brilliant wasn’t it?!! I don’t want to spoil anything in case you haven’t seen it, but I thought the final scene was beautifully done. I feel I’m in the process of being able to do the same as Alan. It was wonderful watching him with you, aha!!
Take it nice and gently my beautiful soul, and enjoy the most gorgeous and restful evening, with your precious heart filled with love, joy and chuckles {} xxx
Beautiful Soul by Katy J Pearson comes to mind {} xx
I love you and I’m hugging you with all my heart. Hug, hug. Kiss, kiss. Give yourself tons of love and care for me too {} xxxx
U2’s heartbreaking Every Breaking Wave has just started playing. It’s making me cry. I do miss you {} xxx It’s 18:18.
It’s 18:55. Phone and I are hugging you extra tightly {} xxx