Keep Snug and Warm…
2nd January 2026
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
How are you? How has your day been? I really hope you’re okay my lovely, and the roaring flames are keeping you nice and warm {} xxx
It’s 19:26. I imagine you’re beginning to settle in for the night with totp. Thoroughly enjoy all the fabulous music for me too xx
When I woke up, I thought I could hear people clapping in the distance. No, I hadn’t taken anything, it was far too early. It’s only when I opened the curtains, that I realised it was the cars going over the ice. It was a different sound to how it normally is. More crunchy.
I imagine you probably needed to go out. I hope your cosy scarf helped keep you snug and warm. It was glorious with the sunshine. I did think of you {} xx
I’m struggling extremely badly. Today’s been a bad day. Monthlies isn’t helping. I need to take the tablets as soon as I start. I lost a lot of blood.
I also sadly lost my orange kalanchoe plant. She was covered in white mildew. I didn’t even see it forming. Perhaps it’s the change in temperature, but it’s never happened before. Her leaves and stems were infected. Just two stems remain. I’m so gutted because she was blooming, and it’s the healthiest she’s ever been. There were lots of new flower buds growing as well.
Face wash is going to be another pain in the arse. I know you’re well aware of the harmful ingredients they add. It’s absolutely shocking what they put in sensitive skin products. They cause more harm and sensitivities.
I’ve found a handful of more natural products, but it’s going to be a lot of testing. I think I have a few weeks until the good wash runs out. Fingers crossed. I did try my body wash. It didn’t irritate but it was drying. If I’m completely stuck, I could try adding a few drops of my oil to it. Might work.
I know I always say this, but I sadly really do need to stop and be quiet for a while. The extra messages over Christmas and New Year took everything out of me. I still have a few messages to respond to, but they need to wait. Probably a while. My brain is extremely angry with me, and I can’t afford to damage it by pushing.
I know there’s a good chance you’re not reading these letters, but I also worry about not being able to write to you in case you are. I do worry about you. I still feel responsible for you. I know you’re going through a lot, and you have a lot to carry as well. I imagine it might feel overwhelming from time to time. I’m so, so sorry my lovely, I really am. I wish I could hug you {} xxx
I also know that you will be taking good care of yourself, and giving your precious heart lots of love, care and nourishment. I know you have all your loved ones as well, but that doesn’t stop me from worrying and caring about you and your wellbeing. I really do hope you’re okay my lovely {} xx
I promise I will write as soon as I can. You know I can’t stay away for too long. I am dreading next week. I have my online appointment with my occupational health therapist. She’s so lovely and she does understand, but it will take a lot of energy.
Therapy also restarts, although I don’t really have a break from it. It’s constant. I know I haven’t processed what’s happened with the remaining members of my family. It’s been completely silent so it has come to an end. I feel they might’ve wanted this. I will need to work through it in relation to everything connected with family. Family is such a loaded word isn’t it?!!
It’s 20:42. This was supposed to be a short message. I do miss you. I just checked, Climie Fisher is singing Love Like a River on totp. I still love his Love Changes (Everything).
Please take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my precious sweetheart. Keep snug and warm, and thoroughly enjoy the most gorgeous, relaxing and fun weekend. I hope I can join your fabulous music party again someday {} xx
I hope you’ll be gently eased in on Monday, and you’ll enjoy seeing everyone again. I imagine you’re working on some fantastic projects. I’m so sorry the freezing cold temperatures are with us for a while, and you’ll be scrapping first thing. Wrap up well, and get there and back safely. As always, rest and play whenever you can {} xxx
Despite my silence, I am thinking of you and I do love you very much. My love, comforting bear hugs and warm kisses will wrap themselves around you, and they’ll never let you go. I’ll write as soon as I can {} xxxx
I almost forgot, Zohran Mamdani’s inaugural speech was brilliant wasn’t it?! Let’s hope those ripples start to spread out everywhere.
Sleep well, sleep restfully and peacefully my lovely, with the sweetest of dreams for both of us {} xxx It’s 21:12.
The Wolf Moon is howling loudly and brightly tonight with sparkling Jupiter. So wonderful to see them and say hello to you!! Let’s enjoy their magnificence together {} xxx