A Much Nicer Goodbye…
22nd August 2026
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine {} xxx
I opened YouTube, and the first song that popped up was Fireflies by Martin Garrix and U2. I can’t tell you how much it’s brightened my day. My heart and I beaming. I really needed it. As well as it being a beautiful song, it’s also a connection to you xx
I know what you said in November, but I can only express how I genuinely feel in these letters. I love you my precious anam cara {} xxx Liron saw me beaming, and she asked just with your name. I nodded and she smiled with me.
I imagine you’ve already heard Fireflies, and you love it as well. This is my fourth listen. It’s so catchy and positive, isn’t it?! It’s perfectly timed.
It’s 18:00. Your music party will now be starting. Thoroughly enjoy all the fantastic grooves for me too. That reminds me, Here’s James Brown’s Funky Drummer just for you xx
How are you my lovely? I hope you’re okay, and you’re enjoying a beautifully chilled day, taking everything at a gentle pace {} xx I also hope you’ve been able to enjoy sun’s brightness and warmth.
My therapist replied to my email, and she was so lovely. It’s extremely sad. I feel these final messages have also helped give some closure, and I hope they’ve helped her as well. It’s also been a much nicer way of saying goodbye than it was at the end of the session.
She does care deeply about her practice and her clients. I wish I’d spoken with her sooner. I do feel the pain, grief and loss. It’s bubbling as I write this. I need time to process what’s happened, but I feel it’ll be okay. I do feel a bit better today.
My therapist kindly said that I need to give myself the same compassion that I give to others. This is something I need to learn, along with so many other things.
It’s 18:18 xx I’m going to continue watching the very first episode of Quantum Leap! It’s so wonderful seeing Sam and Al again. I remember asking you about it, and you loved it as well.
Take it nice and gently my beautiful sweetheart, and enjoy the most fabulous, fun and joyous evening nourishing your precious heart. Have tons of fun making sweet soul music for me as well {} xxx
I’m sending you much love, with the biggest and tightest of comforting bear hugs, and sweet kisses. Play and rest well my lovely {} xxxx
I need lots of rest as well. I hope you can join me. Hug, hug. Kiss, kiss.