It Was Never You…
14th September 2026
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It’s 20:26. How are you? How has your day been? I really hope you and all your loved ones are keeping well, and everything is okay. I hope it wasn’t too full on at work, and you’re now having a wonderful rest with something special. Rest well my lovely {} xxx
I’m really struggling. I’m due to get my hair cut on Wednesday. I really hope I’ll be well enough. I still can’t write properly, but I just wanted to say hello xx
This quote by Rilke came up in Smallville, and I couldn’t help but think of you xx
“A person isn’t who they are during the last conversation you had with them – they’re who they’ve been throughout your whole relationship.” – Rainer Maria Rilke
It’s so true. Our last few hello’s were awful, but I know they were driven by the triggers. Up until then, our beautiful and precious friendship was mutually positive, caring, supportive, understanding and loving. It still is {} xxx Again, I wouldn’t be able to write to you if it wasn’t.
It was never you during my triggered states. Aha’s Thought That It Was You explains it perfectly. Such a beautiful and tender song.
I’m understanding everything much more now. Smallville is fantastic for showing the different aspects of being human, which includes the damaging effects of trauma. It’s like I’m seeing and hearing everything with a deeper understanding.
Having said that, there’s still so much that I don’t know or I’m not even aware of, but I’m happy to learn. I’m always happy to learn.
Did you know where the abbreviation for pound, lb, originates from? Lb comes from Libra and its scales. I never knew this!! The pound, £, is L with a line through it. It also explains why Italy’s currency was the Lira. Libra’s quite a special constellation, isn’t it?!
It’s 21:12 xx My eyes are extremely sore. I really hope your hay fever symptoms have completely gone now, and you’re feeling okay. I hope so {} xx
I’m going to make face and teeth happy, and then it’s time to sleep.
Thoroughly enjoy the rest of your beautiful evening my precious angel {} Then get as snug as a bug in a rug, and sleep well and restfully with sweet dreams for both of us {} xxx
I love you so much {} Sending you an infinite amount of magical healing love, comforting bear hugs and sweet kisses. Rest and sleep well my lovely {} xxxx
I’m going to leave you with Philippe Talbot singing Bizet’s Je crois entendre encore, from The Pearl Fishers. It’s incredibly moving. I hope your precious soul loves it as well {} xxx