R.I.P Croton…
24th March 2026
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It’s 17:47. I hope you’re now happily home. How are you? How has your day been? I really hope you’re okay my lovely, and it wasn’t non-stop for you. I hope you had a wonderful day and coffee took great care of you {} xxx
Croton’s almost dead. I have no clue what happened. They were absolutely fine three days ago. I noticed that the leaves were drooping yesterday. Most of them fell off today. They’re on their last leaves. I’m so gutted and upset.
I’m not sure if it was the quick change in temperature, the watering or something else. I honestly don’t know. All I know is that they’re dying and I can’t resuscitate them. I checked. There’s no going back when they get to that stage.
I was also upset after I cut back fuchsia. Apart from a few leaves, she’s stripped bare. She’s probably traumatised. Fingers crossed she’ll be fine.
It reminded me of when I cut my Pretty in Pink Barbie’s hair. I wanted to give her a bob, and she was never the same again. I didn’t learn because I later did it to two others as well. That has made me chuckle!! I remember making clothes for them in the living room at home.
I only started going to the living room after my mum died. Up until then, I was always in the bedroom with my mum and dad. I only realised this a few weeks ago during therapy.
I’m not sure if I need to do anything about the dentist. Just writing what happened during the appointments helped. I’ll speak with my therapist on Thursday. I wish I could ask you for your thoughts and advice {} xx
I almost forgot, I also put some cuttings of pink paradise in test tubes. I hope they do grow some roots. I did everything from my bed.
Thankfully, my symptoms aren’t as severe today. Such a relief. L-taurine was causing a lot of it. It’s leaving my system. They put L-taurine in energy drinks. That’s quite a combination with the caffeine. My metabolism would go into complete overdrive.
It’s 18:24. I hope it doesn’t take long for you to do what you need to. Then you can completely switch off, relax, and enjoy the most beautiful evening with all the things you love. I hope you’ve treated yourself to something wonderful xx
Take it gently my lovely. If you play your gorgeous heart out, have tons of fun for me too. Thoroughly enjoy your heavenly meal as well {} xxx
I’m going to leave you with something very special. It’s Computer Love by Anna Calvi, featuring Laurie Anderson. I hope you love their brilliant rendition my precious sweetheart, along with Is This All There Is? again by Anna Calvi, featuring Matt Berninger {} xx
I love you and I’m hugging you so tightly {} xxx The magic healing comfort blanket will wrap itself around you, with all the love, hugs and kisses in the world. Rest well my lovely {} xxxx
It’s 21:41. I just made face and teeth happy. On my way back, I thought I’d have a look through my kitchen window, to see if there were any wonders in the night sky. To my delight and excitement, moon was shining majestically. They were singing a soulful acapella with Capella. So beautiful.
I really hope you can hear their magic my precious starshine {} xxx The nursery rhyme, I Can Sing a Rainbow, just came to mind with the line, “listen with your eyes”. We sang it so many times at school. Did you?
Nnight my lovely xx Sleep well, sleep restfully and peacefully, with sweet dreams for you and for me. Hug hug, kiss kiss {} xxxx