Something to Say Goodnight 2…
19th March 2026
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine {} xxx
It’s 21:35. I hope you’re thoroughly enjoying chilling and resting with something wonderful. I hope you’re okay my lovely, and it wasn’t a long day for you. I’m keeping everything crossed you’re not too exhausted {} xxx
I just heard Willow Weep For Me by Stanley Turrentine and The 3 Sounds. It’s so beautiful, smooth, sexy and relaxing. I just wanted to send it to you. I hope you love it as well my beautiful sweetheart {} xx
I just remembered, one of my tutors on the theatre design course, always use the word sexy to describe something looking good.
It’s been an extremely difficult day. Therapy was tough. So much anger, swearing and rage about being lied to, blamed and gaslit for a good chunk of my life. It’s harmed me greatly. My experience with the dentist triggered it. I felt the anger with her as well. Rightly so.
I also felt the distress, pain and anger about this illness. It feels like it’s too much at the moment. Tuesday’s crash terrified me. I think it’s the first time I’ve said, “it’s a fucking struggle every day”. This illness is brutal and neverending. I try not to think about it, and just get through each day. But this means I repress a lot as well, which is why my feelings took me by surprise today.
I really do need to come out of this continual crash. I need to completely stop. It’s so difficult for me to give my body what it desperately needs. You really did help me with pacing. I needed to, so that I could speak with you as well {} xxx I just fell into a natural rhythm, so I didn’t have to think about it. It all went out of the window since…
L-arginine is a lifeline. My feet aren’t on fire in the evenings anymore, and the blisters on my toes have healed. I only get a tiny red bump or two, which is nothing. Circulation is much better. The sheen on my skin has returned as well. I thought it’d gone forever with Long COVID. This would be the nutrients getting to my cells thanks to L-arginine. Doubling the dose has definitely helped.
I’ve just started another amino acid, L-Taurine. Fingers crossed it’ll help with the fatigue, muscle and autonomic nervous system, even if it’s just slightly.
It’s 22:22. Time to say Nnight xx Sleep well, sleep restfully and peacefully my precious starshine, with sweet dreams for both of us {} xxx
The soothing comfort blanket with wrap itself around you, and will give you an endless amount of magical healing love, hugs and kisses from me as well. Take it gently my lovely {} xxxx