Sweetheart…
18th March 2026
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine {} xxx
It’s 13:13. The weather’s glorious isn’t it?!! I know you’ll be loving sunshine’s warm and bright company. Wonderful!! xx
How are you my lovely? I hope you’re keeping really well and everything’s okay. With the warmer weather and the lawnmowers coming out, I’m keeping everything crossed your hay fever is being kept at bay. I really hope so {} xxx
How was your evening? I’ve never asked how you celebrate St. Patrick’s Day. I imagine you all enjoyed a gorgeous evening, and you played some fabulous music. I remember you sending me a beautiful playlist one year. Van Morrison’s In the Forest was one of the songs.
Here’s Van’s Sweet Thing just for you my beautiful sweetheart {} xxx
It’s 13:30. I imagine you’ll be making your sweet tum extremely happy. Sun will help you relax as well. Thoroughly enjoy your precious quiet moment for me too xx I hope you’re having a really good day.
I feel so ill after my dental appointment yesterday. I’ve written about it separately. Despite feeling fluey, I needed to escape. My camera came to my rescue this morning, and helped me capture some magic. I took them whilst basking in the warmth of the beautiful sunshine. It was wonderful, and much needed nourishment for my soul.
When I could no longer get to the garden, I remember thinking I’ll never be able to take photos again. I was completely wrong. Magic is all around us, and there’s lots of magic in my room. You’re still my wondrous magic xx
Thank you so, so much for making it feel safe for me to be my full self with you. Learning that we’re like children when we feel safe with someone, feels like a revelation, but it make’s complete sense. This is exactly how I was with you. I was all my selves with you, one hundred thousand… Again, this was because you were just being you, your beautiful and precious self.
It was so wonderful getting to know you, getting to know all about you… It was magic and gave me so much joy. You gave me so much joy every single day {} xxx
I still feel guilty and selfish for writing to you. There are so many messages waiting to be written, but I have such little energy and I feel so ill. It’s not that I don’t care, I really, really do, but I still need you {}
Again, I’ve never experienced this before, but I’m realising how incredibly lucky I am to feel this, despite feeling the pain as well. Liron thinks it’s beautiful how I think of you, and how I’m feeling everything. It means I’m alive. She’s absolutely right.
She also said it’s like you’re walking by my side. This is how it’s always felt, but I couldn’t understand it. Perhaps some things aren’t meant to be understood. Perhaps they are just meant to be accepted, appreciated and cherished.
You are deeply loved, appreciated and cherished unconditionally {} xxx
It’s 14:35. I hope the afternoon flies by. Sun can’t wait for you to escape and play. Enjoy the most gloriously sunny, chilled and relaxing evening for me too. Nourish your sweet heart with all the wonders of the universe xx
Take the greatest care of yourself my precious angel, with lots of love, care and kindness for me {} xxx
I love you and I’m hugging you tightly with all my heart. Take it gently my lovely {} xxxx