Thank You So Much for Being Your Beautiful Self {} xxx…
24th May 2026
Good morning my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It’s 10:55. The sun’s beaming with no cloud in sight, and the birds are singing their adorable hearts out, drowning out the sea of traffic.
How are you my lovely? I hope you’re feeling very happy, relaxed and enjoying a very lazy morning. I hope you slept like a baby with sweet dreams {} xxx
I have a couple of things to make you smile. I thought of you when I saw someone spraying “I FARTED IN YOGA” onto a wall in Shepherds Bush, on the 2nd of May 2026. I never asked you this, but is it true? I imagine farting is natural as the body stretches and relaxes. Farts will always be funny!!
Then there’s the otter terrorising a group of lads in Cape Town. I hope both make you chuckle my lovely {} xx
I also have the new song from The Inspiral Carpets, Drag the Bag. I hope you enjoy it xx I think it’s great and very catchy. I remember This is How it Feels. I always resonated with the words, “this is how it feels to be lonely, this is how it feels to be small, this is how it feels when your word means nothing at all”.
Up until today I always thought the words were, “this is how it feels when your life means nothing at all”. This is how I felt at home and throughout my life. I listened to the song so many times when I was young.
It’s 11:11 xx
Speaking of lives not meaning anything, I saw this powerful video by Matthew Todd for News Night about Section 28, and how it affected the gay community. The parallels with what’s happening with the trans community are stark. Exactly the same narratives are being used as well.
I know because of your age, you would’ve been fully aware of what was happening at that time, but I wasn’t. I didn’t know the extent of it. Again, with my exposure to the openly gay musicians and Julian Clarey, the gay community were normal to me. At an unconscious level, I also resonated with them because I felt like an outsider as well. In the same way I resonated with the Elephant Man.
I was more aware of the racism at that time, but I wasn’t directly affected because I lived in a multicultural area. I was aware of the Handsworth riots. My nice aunt worked at a pharmacy there. I remember my grandfather driving her there and back, and the dangers. Apart from that, I was trying to survive my trauma.
I don’t watch the news broadcasts, so I don’t know how they’re talking about the single sex spaces. I’m not sure whether they’d mention that transwomen aren’t allowed to have mammograms because of the rule. With taking HRT, their risk of developing breast cancer is high. For those who have fully transitioned, they’re not allowed to see a gynaecologist either. Only cis women and trans men are. They really do despise transwomen don’t they?!
It’s horrendous that they’re being denied basic healthcare. They also don’t mention non-binary and intersex people, and how they’d be affected. It’s always transwomen. Wes Streeting openly expressed his disgust about transgenders on Mumsnet. These are the ones in charge, making the rules.
Labour have just put barrister Alasdair Henderson as the interim chair of the EHRC in Scotland. He has links to groups opposing the rights of women and LGBTQ+ people. They know what they’re doing don’t they?
It’s terrifying to see that we’re back in the eighties with both racism and LGBTQ+ phobia. If Reform gets in then so many other rights will be taken away. Abortion rights, although it was only last year that I learnt that it’s still technically illegal to have an abortion here. Workers rights, disability rights, maternity pay, human rights will also go, along with the NHS as we know it. The majority of us will be affected.
I know you’ll be aware of everything I’ve said, but I really needed to say it. It’s swirling around in my head. This period feels much darker than the eighties. What we’re experiencing feels like a repeat of what happened a hundred years ago.
Sadly many Reform voters don’t know their policies. They only know “Stop the Boats”. They’re quite shocked when they’re told their policies, but some will still vote for them. It’s frighteningly just like the US.
What’s happening is severely traumatising for Liron. She’s also been traumatised by her childhood, so everything is being compounded for her. The only difference is that she’s thankfully no longer on her own, in the same way I’m not either. I’m so thankful, I really am.
I’m also thankful for you being who you are {} Your views and strong sense of right and wrong. I have no doubt where you stand on these issues, and that you’ll be aware of them. The majority of people aren’t, but this is how we sleep walk into fascism.
Thank you so, so much being your beautiful self, and for your humanity. It really does stand out in the midst of what’s happening. I thank you with all my heart my precious angel. We both do {} xxx
On the plus side, the sense of helplessness is driving Liron to be politically active. It gives her agency. She went to Unite’s meeting in Brum on Friday. She’s going to be the speaker for Trans rights in their conference in October. I’m so proud of her. I see the terror, distress, pain and sleepless nights she’s going through, but that fight is there as well. My fight hasn’t gone either, despite the tiny amount of energy I have.
Thanks to Liron, I’ve been aware that trans people losing their rights, was a stepping stone to other rights being taken away.
It’s 13:13 xx I will stop talking now. I talk a lot don’t I?!! I did with you as well and very freely, as I’m continuing to do {} xxx
With everything that’s happening, I’m struggling to fall asleep at the moment. I didn’t get to sleep until about 02:00 last night. I felt the despair and I really wished I could see you. I wished I might see you in my dreams, but I didn’t. I hugged you through my phone whilst you were singing instead xx Perhaps tonight. Please come and say hello. That would be so wonderful {} xx
I desperately wished to see my mum in my dreams for decades, after she died.
If you’re out for a glorious walk, thoroughly enjoy all the wonder and magic for me as well. I hope you see many of your special friends xx They’re still singing their gorgeous hearts out here. So beautiful. A plane’s just silenced them. They’re chirping now.
Please take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my precious starshine xx Enjoy the most fabulous, fun, relaxing and delicious day. I imagine you’ve been enjoying the cricket as well. Brilliant!! {} xxx
I love you so much, and I’m sending you an infinite amount of magical healing and protective love, comforting bear hugs and sunshine kisses. Hug, hug. Kiss, kiss {} xxxx
I just remembered, Jools is on tonight. Love it for me as well {} xxx I’ll join you later, but first I’m catching up with the episode with Pulp. They’re singing the brilliant Spike Island right now. It’s 14:41 xx
I love Jool’s interview with Suzanne Vega, with her talking about how she gets inspiration from her dreams. How she was inspired to write Flying with Angels about care giving, and how there’s an unseen force/hand that helps us. Such a beautiful thought.
So is her waking up with the words “I’m Bob Dylan’s chambermaid” in her mind, and getting inspirational visits from others in her dreams. Dreams are magic aren’t they?! Please come and say hello to me soon. I’ll be over the moon to see you, and I’ll give you the biggest hug ever!! {} xxx It’s 15:15.