Lots of Hugs…
1st July 2025
Good morning my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It’s 11:11. I’ve just heard These Alarms by Snow Patrol and Kylie. I think it’s a brilliant collaboration. They’re perfect together. I hope you love it as well my beautiful sweetheart {} xxx
How are you? I hope you’re keeping really well, and you’re having a good start to the week. I know you’re still incredibly busy, but I hope everything’s okay. I hope you’re okay, and you’re not too exhausted. It’s almost over {} xxx
You must be thoroughly enjoying your special rendezvous with coffee. As always, they’ll give you lots of hugs and kisses for me as well {} xx
I’ll write later. I’m struggling, but I need to get ready for my hair cut. It’s desperately needed.
It’s 18:20. I hope you’re very happily home my lovely. Sit back, relax and completely switch off with something wonderful. Medicine is always delighted to join you {} xx
I hope this makes you smile xx The word of the day, from Cian McCarthy@arealmofwonder, is Flumpert-Wankling – the awkward dance your hands do when you try to explain something. I used to do this a lot. I now realise it’s because I was extremely nervous. I was a nervous wreck much of the time. You never saw that person, only glimpses of her.
Most of those nerves went after the course, and I no longer Flumpert-Wankle to that extent. I don’t think I’ve seen you do it either xx
I do feel better after getting my hair cut, and it was wonderful seeing my lovely hairdresser. You can’t really see it properly here, but it is spikier.
It’s difficult taking an accurate photo with the phone, because of the fisheye effect. As you know, my face is wider than this. That negative voice still creeps in. Today it was, “I look uglier in real life. My face is wider”. It’s not good, is it?! But at least I’m recognising it now. I still feel ugly. Not sure if that’ll ever fully go.
Donald Sutherland comes to mind, when he talked about his mum making him feel ugly, and how her words stayed with him. It’s heartbreaking to see his pain is just as raw sixty-six years later. I remember you were extremely surprised to learn this as well {} Words do linger, especially the negative ones. We never know the scars people walk with, do we? From the outside, they look so confident. We look so confident…
It’s 19:26. I hope you’ve done everything you need to, and you can fully rest now. I’m joining you xx I hope you’ll be making your sweet tum very happy soon {}
Here’s a great preview clip of Ann Droid, starring Diane Morgan and Sue Johnston. I couldn’t help but think of you, and thought it might make you chuckle as well {} xx
Take it extra gently my precious starshine. Enjoy the most beautifully chilled evening, and make your gorgeous heart sing for me too {} xxx
I’m thinking of you and I love you so much xx I do miss you, every single day.
I’m sending you tons and tons of magical healing love, comforting bear hugs and kisses. Rest well my lovely. Hug, hug. Kiss, kiss {} xxxx
I’ve just finished posting this to you. It’s 20:02 xx
I just saw England have won, and through to the final sixteen in the World Cup. They must be over the moon! Wonderful!! Thoroughly enjoy celebrating together my lovely, and enjoy some medicine for me too {} xxx