New Phone Wants to Say Hello…
13th November 2025
Good morning my most beautiful and precious starshine {} xxx
It’s 11.33. I hope you’ve loved your very special moment with coffee. It’s wonderful sun joined you as well. So did I with my cuppa, but something was missing. There was no sweetness from chocolate today.
How are you? I really do hope you’re keeping well and everything is okay my lovely. I hope you had a very restful night’s sleep. My therapist sadly has the flu and needed to cancel. Again, I really hope you and all your loved ones are keeping safe and well. I hope so. I wish I could speak with you directly {} xxx
I also hope it’s not too full on or stressful for you. I hope you’re having a really good morning and there’s no late night this week.
My new phone wants to say hello to you. They’ve heard wonderful things about you, and they’re looking forward to speaking with you in the future, even if it’s just briefly.
I am expecting the worst aren’t I?! I’m so, so sorry. I don’t want to, but it’s my overly protective voice. My logic is to be prepared for it. This is about being hurt isn’t it? I know I’ll be ecstatic if I’m completely wrong. There have been moments recently where my heart was filled with joy, when I thought there might be a chance to resume our precious friendship, but I honestly do understand if you don’t want to {} xxx
I’ve just finished transferring WhatsApp and everything’s intact. Nothing’s lost. I know nothing’s been lost in the past, but I just needed to be certain. How I felt when I thought I’d lost your music, caught me off guard. It does mean the world to me, as do you {} xxx
So much has caught me off guard since last November…
One of my regrets from my past, is not taking my mum’s certificates when I left home, especially her university degree. I found it just before I was leaving. It was the first time I learnt that she had a degree in psychology. I never knew. Would it have meant anything to my dad? I honestly don’t know. It’s unlikely.
I’m so thankful I have her bangles, which she wore every day. I haven’t looked at them for years, but it’s comforting to know that they’re with me. It’s all I have left of her along with her photos.
I also regret not telling her how much I love her, but I was too young to know what it was then. Regardless of what happens, I don’t want to have the same regrets with you {} xx
I am struggling today, both physically and emotionally. There was some good news though. I got the biopsy results of my fibroid, and as expected it’s benign. Thankfully all the growths have been benign, including a cyst on my liver. It’s reassuring to know.
The final special delivery arrived as well. My first concert ticket. I wish I had the energy to feel my excitement, but I know it’s there.
Speaking of energy, Hiromi’s amazing Blackbird popped up. She’s made the song hers, and she’s such a joy to watch isn’t she?! I think another brillant cover is Sweet Thing by The Waterboys. It’s wonderful how they added Blackbird to it, and also made it their own. I hope you thoroughly enjoy relaxing with them later my lovely {} xxx
It’s taken me a long time to write this. It’s now 15.51. I’ve been stopping and starting with a lot of reflecting. I really hope it’s going to be okay. I wish I could ask you right now, this way I’d know for sure. Sitting with this uncertainty feels difficult today, but I don’t want to mess things up by being badly triggered again. I also don’t want to trigger you. I don’t want to upset you in any way whatsoever. I honestly don’t. That’s the last thing I want {} xxx
I do need to put myself back together again. I am slowly getting there little by little. Thinking, reflecting, and seeing my dad and my family with fresh eyes is helping. It’s also giving me a better understanding. It was never about me, even though it was directed at me. I know it in my head, and hopefully my heart will soon know it as well. I think I’m triggered today. I’m sure I am.
I’m keeping everything crossed you haven’t got too long to go now, and you’ll be happily home soon. Please take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my sweet thing. I imagine you might be exhausted. Just one more day until you’re free. It’s brilliant the rugby’s waiting for you this weekend {} xx
Rest, rest and rest my precious angel, and enjoy the most beautiful evening with lots of love and care for me too {} xxx
I love you and I’m hugging you extra tightly. The comfort blanket will wrap itself around you as well, with lots of magical healing love, hugs and kisses {} xxxx
It’s 16:16. I hope it flies by. Get home safely and quickly my lovely. Rest well {} xx