Reawaken…
16th July 2025
Good morning my most beautiful and precious starshine,
How are you my lovely? I hope you’re okay and you slept well with the sweetest of dreams. I hope you’re enjoying a very gentle start to the day and slowly waking up {} xxx
I hope you have something wonderful planned for today. If you go out for a special walk, thoroughly enjoy it for me too {} xx Thoroughly enjoy seeing your loved ones as well. I imagine you’ll be spending time in your magical garden and your fabulous studio. I wish I could see how it’s blossoming and I wish I could hear you. I wish I could see you.
I opened my curtains to a wonderful surprise. Two fuchsia’s have opened their beautiful eyes. They wanted to say hello to you {} xx I never thought they’d flower again. I forgot, they recently survived being kicked out of the window by curtain, as well as the three near death experiences. Miracles really do happen.
It feels much cooler at the moment. I feel very cold but it could be the crash. I am getting the chills. My nervous system has calmed down again after a week. It was therapy that caused a spike. I really do hope this is permanent. My body’s not going into exercise mode so easily. It is miraculous. I’m automatically sitting up and moving around a bit more. Looking after the plants isn’t completely draining me. If this continues then there might be a chance of an improvement.
I speak with my doctor on Friday. I bled for three and a half weeks, and I’m due again very soon. There’s a tablet called tranexamic acid that can reduce the amount of bleeding. You just take them for up to four days on the heaviest days. I need to try and reduce it otherwise it’ll make the anaemia worse again. I’m also due for a blood test to see what my iron and haemoglobin levels are.
I was shocked by the waiting list for a gynaecologist. I am an emergency because of the heavy bleeding and anaemia, but it could take up to a year to get an appointment. I’ll need to use the insurance. It’s not the NHS’s fault. My lower tum is feeling tender most of the time now, so it does need some help. I don’t want it to worsen because it’ll affect how I function severely.
It’s shower and finally finish a long waiting message. I’ll watch the Doctor as well. They’re brilliant, and it’s wonderful to see how each brings their own personality to the Doctor.
Fingers crossed the sun stays with us today. Take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my beautiful sweetheart. Enjoy a very sunny, relaxing and fabulous day, and make your gorgeous heart soar for me too {} xxx
It’s 11.10, thoroughly enjoy saying hello to coffee. There’s lots of warm hugs and energising kisses waiting for you. I’ll join you with some tea. Let’s enjoy our comforting cuppas together {} xx
It’s 11.11. I love you and I’m hugging you with all my might. It’s stronger since my iron infusions {} xxxx