Solar Eclipse of the Heart…
29th March 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
I really hope you’re okay my lovely, and you’re enjoying the most fabulous, fun and relaxing day {} xxx
I imagine you loved the partial solar eclipse earlier. I did as well. The weather was perfect wasn’t it? The sky was absolutely clear and then the clouds returned once it was over. It was magic, but I still can’t feel the joy and excitement I did with you. I miss you. You were my morphine, and just as addictive.
I’ve never asked if you had some protective eclipse glasses. I imagine you do. I used the pinhole camera I made the last time. The image is tiny but very beautiful. I photographed it this time through the pinhole camera. As always, I really wanted to share them with you.
I also took some photos using my mobile phone. I was surprised when I applied a contrast filter this photo:
I also added a blue filter to the original and made some tiny alterations. Blue Moon by Peggy Lee comes to mind.
Despite the distance and deep chasm, the moon and light are still connected. The blue fog at the top is helping to bridge that connection. I think this composition works well at conveying this, along with the intimacy between the two.
Black nano paint could be used to create the chasm. In theory, the paint would absorb all the light so the clear black line would remain, and it also wouldn’t be affected by the viewers presence. The chasm would stay intact and uninterrupted.
I can see this working as an installation. The size of the room can’t be too large or too small. It needs to retain the intimacy and melancholy between the moon and the fluorescent light, for the viewer to experience.
Olafur Eliasson’s brilliant Your Blind Passenger comes to mind, which I experienced at his In Real Life exhibition at Tate Modern, in 2019. We slowly walked through dense yellow fog. You could barely see the person in front of you. It felt quite claustrophobic. There was a scent as well. I can’t remember it clearly, but I think it might have been an earthy scent.
Olafur used florescent lamps, monofrequency lamps, fog machine, ventilator, wood, aluminium, steel, fabric, plastic sheet.
Capturing this image today along with the concept was a lovely surprise. It felt like a David Lynch moment. I know I can’t make my ideas a reality anymore, but it does feel great getting these sparks. They are a part of me.
I remember you saying how I just needed to come up with the ideas, and have someone else do them for me. You really moved me by your words and they’ve stayed with me. Thank you so much my beautiful angel {} xxx It’s a wonderful idea, but with my health it feels way out of reach, just like you…
I love you to the beautiful moon and back my adorable sweetheart {} xxxx
30th March 2025 – 10.22pm
I only just felt the longing in the concept for the installation photo. I’ve changed its name. It’s funny, in relation to my experience of listening to Fade Into You with you, I really wanted to do a piece expressing that deep longing, but had no idea how it could be done. The blue fog would add to the heaviness that accompanies this longing.
It seems to have fallen into my lap without me even realising it. This installation is not just for that moment with you, it’s for every moment I’ve felt this way with you, including now. These feelings don’t seem to go away so easily. Will they ever?
I hope you’ve enjoyed the most gorgeous day my lovely, and you thoroughly enjoyed the radiant sunshine. It was beaming for us today.
Nnight, sleep well and very restfully, with the sweetest dreams for both of us. I’m hugging you with lots of kisses {} xxx