Spring Has Sprung…
5th April 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It really has sprung. I think this is a wonderful version of You Make Me Feel So Young by Connie Francis and Bobby Darin. I hope you enjoy it too my lovely. You really did {} xxx
I hope you’re having the most gorgeous day, and you’ve enjoyed the glorious sunshine. I thought you might be spending some time in your magical garden, and giving it your special TLC. I imagine it’s starting to blossom beautifully.
I also hope you’re feeling okay my lovely. I read hay fever is worse this year. I really do hope you’re not symptomatic, if you are then it’s very mild. I hope you’re okay {} xx
I imagine you’ve had a busy day, but I hope you’re now enjoying some fabulous music with medicine. I enjoyed some medicine and was transported back to Puglia.
I’m trying to run away from myself by distracting myself, but it’s causing me more harm, especially with my health. I’m still not fully out of the crash yet. It’s difficult breaking a habit of a lifetime, but I really do need to. It’s the only way I can start taking care of myself.
Despite all the emotions I’ve experienced over the last five months, I still want to avoid the pain. I thought it would get easier, but it doesn’t when the automatic survival mechanism kicks in. My instinct is to push myself and run. I’m still in a half triggered state.
The plants have been my distraction. I sorted the window sill. I sadly lost the orchid in this room, but the cyclamen is coming back to life and is happier away from the window sill. Poor thing got sunburn.
I finally got pots for ones that have been naked for a very long time, and ordered some more plants and pots. I’m not going to be able to get to the garden again this year, so I’m bringing it to me. This is how the window sill looks now. It has brightened my room.
I heard You Can Never Hold Back Spring by Tom Waits for the first time. It’s very moving.
Take it very gently my beautiful sweetheart, and enjoy the most gorgeous and restful evening, with your precious heart filled with love, sunshine, music and magic {} xxx
I’m thinking of you and sending you tons and tons of magical healing love, and comforting hugs and kisses {} xxxx