Talking To You With Music…
25 January 2025
I just saw the brilliant Masterclass Part 4 clip by B.B. King, where he talks about phrasing and how he uses it to talk to us. B.B. King plays so beautifully and yes, he talks directly to our soul. He made mine yearn. It’s stunning, and I know it would talk to you as well. I imagine you’ve already seen it. He’s amazing.
It doesn’t feel as painful not to send gems like this to you, although I still wish I could. I miss you. I really do…
It also doesn’t feel as painful listening to music. It now comes in waves rather than it being constant. It depends on the song as well.
It’s Saturday and the sun is shining brightly. I hope you’re enjoying feeling its warmth my lovely. I love you {} xxxx
2.51pm
I just saw the Championship is on today. I imagine you’ll be watching at 5pm. I’m keeping everything crossed they win. You might be watching the cricket as well. Enjoy every thrilling minute for me too my beautiful sweetheart {} xxx
I’m talking to a ghost, aren’t I?!! I’m no longer speaking with you. Despite music becoming a bit easier to listen to, it’s still incredibly painful. Your loves and your routines are ingrained along with everything else. My heart’s just broken again and the tears have started.
9.45pm
I just saw the score. You must be over the moon. I’m feeling very happy for you too. It hasn’t changed, I don’t think it ever will. It’s just more muted than before, but then everything is at the moment. It feels like there’s a heavy wall on my heart…
28th January 2025
It’s 11.39am, I hope you’ve thoroughly enjoyed your very special moment with coffee {} xx
I just noticed Six Nations starts on Friday, with your favourite team on Saturday. Thoroughly enjoy every thrilling minute for me too my adorable sweetheart. I hope medicine will be holding your hand {} xxx
Matt Monro’s On Day’s Like These just came to mind. You sent it to me when they played it just before the game. Such a beautiful song, and the sun is trying to come out after the rain. I love you {} xxxx
6.38pm
I’m just writing to a friend, and this is the time I’d normally write to you. We’d speak. It’s really hit me again. I can’t tell you how much I miss speaking with you. I miss you so much. Tears are flowing and heart’s breaking again.
I thought today was a bit of a turning point, but I was completely wrong. I feel as if I’ve lost you all over again.