Time for a Break…
14th December 2024
Good morning my most beautiful and precious starshine,
I really do hope you’re okay my lovely, and you had very restful night’s sleep. I can no longer ask you how you are. I’m too exhausted and crashed to cry now.
The sun’s shining gloriously this morning. Hopefully it stays with us. I really hope you’ll be able to enjoy its warmth and brightness. I know you don’t usually go for a walk on Saturdays, but it’s been a while since it’s been like this. If you do go for a beautiful walk, thoroughly enjoy it and all the magic for me too my lovely {} xxx
It’s already been a month now. Time flies even when you’re not…
I imagine you must be really looking forward to breaking up for Christmas. Not long to go now until your much needed holiday.
I need to have a break now too. My body is really at its limit and I’m feeling very ill. I’ve used more energy than I have. There’s so much I need to write, but it has to wait. Everything has to wait a while. It seems like a strange thing to say, but just writing this gives me permission to stop and finally take care of myself again.
John Lennon’s demo of Real Love popped up first thing. We sent each other two different versions of Real Love over the last year. It’s a beautiful song. It’s the first time I’ve heard John’s Real Life. The lyrics took me by surprise. It’s the complete opposite to the released song and absolutely heartbreaking. I imagine you know it extremely well.
I know we can both relate to John’s words, and so will many others as well. I know I’m incredibly lucky to have had my mum’s love, for my first nine years. I can’t tell you how I wish it was different for you my lovely {} xxx
As a child, we really do need to feel loved, nurtured and accepted by our parents. John’s right, we can feel alone and isolated without it. That longing and everything that comes with it, sadly stays with us, and automatically and unconsciously shapes our future.
It can have a huge impact on our self worth as well. More than often it leaves us with a negative and false view of ourselves, which can sadly affect us greatly. I know it did with me, which you saw.
I know we can and do change with time, reflection, work on ourselves, taking care of ourselves, positive experiences with people and doing the things we love.
You’ve helped me tremendously, especially over the last four years. You really have been instrumental in my changes, and I’ll be eternally grateful and thankful to you. Thank you so, so much my precious angel {} xxx
I will say bye for now. Take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my adorable sweetheart. Enjoy the most beautiful, sunny, relaxing and very restful weekend. Nourish your precious heart with all things you love, and enjoy listening and playing all the fabulous music for me too {} xxx
I love you and miss you with all my heart. I’m hugging you extra tightly. I hope you can still feel them my lovely {} xxxx