Tu Me Manques…
20th November 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It’s 18:29. I hope you’re now very happily home. How are you? I really do hope you’re okay my lovely, and you’ve had a really good day. I hope everything is okay and not too stressful {} xxx
I imagine it’s freezing cold when you leave for work. I’m so, so sorry my lovely. I really do hope you’re okay. I’m waking up later, about 08:00, so I’m not hearing any scraping. I imagine your gorgeous fire will be keeping you warm and cosy this evening {} xxx
I’m under the blankets so I’m always snug and warm. I’m also happily pissed as a fart. I know I’m going to regret it tomorrow, but our favourite red has enjoyed flirting with the dark chocolate and the flatbread. Flatbread won hands down.
The dark chocolate seems to take the fruitiness away from both of them, with the chocolate faring better. Our favourite red is much happier with the slightly salted flat bread, and vice versa. They seem to be happy together.
Speaking of salt, my body refused to accept the Himalayan pink salt, but it’s working in harmony with the Celtic Harvest Sea Salt. As salts go, it’s actually very delicious. Our bodies do know what they need, and today mine needed some red wine. I really hope you can join me this evening {} xxx
I’m reminded of you everyday, so today wasn’t an exception, but it was lovely {} xxx It started with Gimme Some Lovin’ popping up on my feed first thing, followed by This Mortal Coil’s ethereal version of Song to the Siren. I remember listening to it the evening before you told me you were playing Tim Buckley’s incredibly moving original. You kindly sent it to me. I fell in love with it. Thank you so much my beautiful sweetheart {} xxx
There were always so many coincidences, and still are… I can’t explain when things randomly pop up at the right time. Perhaps there’s no need to.
I’m struggling badly today. The only way I can switch off is by watching a lightweight movie. It was Champagne Problems today. It’s been slated very badly, but I enjoyed it, and there are some insightful moments. It’s a Christmas story, which are always heartwarming. Are they realistic? Not really, but they feel good, which is much needed.
It was set in France which is always wonderful, and the French language is incredibly beautiful. As you know, I’m useless with languages, including my own. But I do love them, and wish my brain was wired to learn them better.
I did learn a beautiful saying from the film. “Tu Me Manques” means, “you are missing from me.” I couldn’t help but think of you because it encapsulates how I feel. Again, I’ve never felt this before. I have a tendency to try and rationalise everything, but I can’t seem to rationalise my feelings when it comes to you. It just is {} xxx
The other beautiful saying in the film was, “Les chamins les plus difficiles ménent aux plus belles destinations”. “The most difficult roads lead to the most beautiful destinations”. I really do hope so…
I also spotted The Beatles’ infamous line, “The love you get is equal to the love you give” painted on the wall of a book store. I am incredibly thankful, grateful and humbled by all of you, I really am. Thank you so, so much {} xxx
They had a lovely French version of Dream a Little Dream of Me in the film, but I can’t find it. I do have Jacqui Abbott with the Beautiful South, singing Les Yeux Ouverts beautifully. I hope you enjoy it as well my precious sweetheart {} xxx The translation of the lyrics are different to Dream a Little Dream of Me. The French lyrics feel more apt. I do miss you terribly.
I was also reminded of The Little Prince. Reading is still incredibly difficult for me, but I’ve found my copy and hope to revisit it. The Red Balloon also comes to mind. It’s a magnificent film on so many levels. I was so happy to discover you love it too {} xx
It’s extremely difficult at the moment. I’m struggling with everything. It makes it harder with my energy being reduced further. Our favourite red will make things worse, but I don’t regret it.
Liron’s going to Germany in three weeks for her brother’s wedding. She’ll be away for almost a week. I really wish I could join her. It’s the registry office wedding this year and the church next year.
I need to get some things done before she leaves, because it’s going to be even harder afterwards. I haven’t fully come out of the crash, and it’s likely I will crash again. I will be glad when this year’s over. I really do need to completely stop, otherwise I can’t get back to how I was before the appointments and surgery.
Everything is taking much longer to do, including writing. If I can’t write, I promise I will write as soon as I can {} xxx
It’s 20:34. I really am extremely slow. I hope you and your sweet tum are jumping for joy, and you’re chilling with something very special. Rest, rest and rest my lovely. Just one more day. The rugby’s happily waiting for you, as well as all the fabulous music.
Take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my beautiful sweetheart, and enjoy every thrilling and beautiful moment for me too. Wrap up and keep snug and warm as well {} xxx
I love you and I hug you with all my heart. They’ll stay with you along with all my kisses. Take care my lovely, and sleep well and very restfully for both of us {} xxxx
I almost forgot, Don Henley’s Boys of Summer was posted as well. It reminded me of when I sent you First Aid Kid’s wonderful cover of it. Yes, regardless of what happens, my love for you will always be… I had no idea until this year.