Unconditional Love…
16th October 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
I hope you’re as snug as a bug in a rug, and sleeping soundly with the sweetest of dreams {} xxx
It’s 04:04 and I can’t sleep. My system’s gone into complete overdrive after yesterday, so I’m wired and tired. I’ve been getting random fleeting thoughts, but then my feelings for you came up, and I started to reflect upon them.
I wrote this during the night but I needed to alter some of the wording so that it reads better. I am struggling with my words and I can’t seem to express my thoughts very well. I’m so shattered and my brain’s not working. Here goes. Fingers crossed…
I’m finally starting to understand that things are never black and white, and that there are many nuances. Regarding my feelings for you, if I was to strip a lot of the things away, the core of my love for you is pure and unconditional. I felt it fully when we hugged the very last time. I feel it now.
I just love you for you being you {} xxx
I always feel joy when you feel joy. It’s just wonderful seeing you happy and seeing you enjoying things to the fullest. I’m over the moon when you do the things you love, because they bring you so much joy and nourish your beautiful soul. I feel that joy and excitement with you and for you.
It’s so wonderful when you thoroughly enjoy sharing and doing things with your loved ones. Those moments are very precious, and I feel so happy for you. It’s the same when things go really well for you and your loved ones, when things work out. It’s the simple things.
I might not share all your interests, for example the sports, but I feel the joy and excitement because they make you happy, and you absolutely love them. In turn, I feel it for the teams as well, and I’ve found myself getting caught up in it. It’s contagious. I also feel the disappointment whenever your teams lose.
I also feel extremely happy when you’re with coffee and medicine, and when you’re nourishing your sweet tum with heavenly delights. I feel it with everything that brings you joy, happiness, peace and contentment. These are the things I wish for you {} xx
I feel sadness and my heart’s with you when things are difficult, worrying, painful or stressful. I feel sad when things go wrong, or don’t work out as you hoped. I wish I had that magic wand. I really wish I could help, but I know that’s not always possible. I just want to be there for you. The worry is naturally there, and in those moments I really hope I am able to give you some comfort, support and encouragement, even if it’s just a little bit {} xx
The traffic caused by the roadworks comes to mind. I feel sad for the extra time added to your journey, but then I know you’ll enjoy seeing the autumnal colours, and that makes me feel very happy for you. I’m smiling as I write this {} xx
I feel deeply touched whenever you share your thoughts and feelings with me, along with your views, opinions, loves and hates. Everything you shared with me is very precious and dear to me. I will always treasure everything.
You’re incredibly busy, so I’m always delighted when you take it gently and restfully, and enjoy chilling and doing as you please. I’m also over the moon when you think about your own needs and feelings. You’re taking care of yourself.
Your health and well-being are incredibly important to me as well, and I naturally worry whenever it’s not right. I do worry about you. I wish I knew how you are, how you’re feeling and how everything is. I really do hope you’re keeping well and happy my lovely, and everything is okay. I really hope so {} xx
Funnily my mum came to mind, and how she was with me. I imagine she might have felt the same way with me. Her love was pure and unconditional. I feel this is at the core of my love for you. I think this is why my love for you is intact. You are a part of me, in the same way my mum and Liron are. Each love is different, but the essence is the same.
It’s 05:05. I’m starting to feel the fluey PEM symptoms. I’m going to stop and post this to you later. I’ll try and see if I can sleep.
You’ll be waking up soon. I hope you wake up feeling rested. Thoroughly enjoy your delicious and super nutritious breakfast. Despite the lengthy journey, enjoy seeing the gorgeous bursts of reds, oranges and yellows for me too {} xx
Take the greatest and gentlest care of yourself my precious sweetheart. Have a wonderful day sprinkled with lots of magic moments. I hope it’s at a good pace with no late night. I’m keeping every single thing crossed {} xxx
I’m sending you all my love, with the biggest and tightest of magical healing and protective bear hugs, filled with kisses. I love you {} xxxx
It’s 12:43. Someone posted The Velvet Underground and Nico’s I’ll Be Your Mirror. It’s so beautiful, and once again, perfectly timed. I remember sending it to you and discovering you loved it. Thoroughly enjoy revisiting it later my wonderful one {} xxx Nico has a fabulous voice doesn’t she?! I can’t help but think of Amanda Lear when I hear her sing, and vice versa. I’d still happily follow you.
It’s Nico’s and Kate Bush’s birthday today. So many precious gems in October {} xx
I haven’t slept a wink. It’s going to hit me hard very soon. I am going to need to be quiet for a little while. Please give yourself lots of love and care for me too. I’m hugging you extra tightly and it’ll stay with you along with all my love {} xxxx