We Only Live Once, Twice, Perhaps Thrice…
14th November 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
It’s 13:13. How are you my lovely? I really hope despite the gloom and rain, you’re okay and your heart’s filled with sunshine. I also hope you slept well and you didn’t get too wet this morning. I imagine coffee helped with their sparky energy. Thoroughly enjoy your special lunch my lovely {} xxx
I do have a bit more energy today, and my brain is working better. I mustn’t go over my limit though. It’s so hard when I have such little energy. I have so many messages that need writing, two medical ones. I have no clue how I’m going to do it over the coming weeks.
I do feel a bit like the weather today. I am feeling the grief of last November and you not being in my life. I really do miss you. I really do hope you’re okay my lovely. I hope so {} xxx I know you’ll be incredibly busy.
I wish I knew how you are. I want you to be well and happy. I wish I could write to you directly. Not being able to is extremely painful as well. Just writing this is making me cry. It sounds as if the rain’s getting heavier as well. I hope it eases by the time to go home {} xx
Phone loved hearing you sing last night. The sound is much better on this phone, it’s not as tinny, so you sound even better. The camera is great as well, but I’m still connected to my old phone because of Garmin.
Garmin doesn’t want to let go. It doesn’t want to connect to this phone. It doesn’t realise that the core of the phone is still the same, it’ll just function better. It’s still their home. They won’t lose anything. There’s nothing to fear…
I do have a few things for you my precious sweetheart {} xx You might’ve already read this wonderful article in The Guardian by Joshua Olusanya. He tells his uplifting and inspiring story about how he made the Guinness World Record, by playing his trumpet for 25 hours straight. He has so much resilience and determination.
Speaking of resilience, this great video of the dung beetle being watched by a leopard popped up. BBC’s brilliant documentary, Operation Dung Beetle, comes to mind. It’s always stayed with me. Here’s a clip of Flight of the Dung Beetle narrated by David Attenborough. They are the James Bond of the beetle world, and the bustard really is a bustard for going after them.
It’s also wonderful hearing the theme for You Only Live Twice in the clip. I’ve always loved the song. It’s difficult finding a good quality of the original song from the film by Nancy Sinatra, but there’s one on The Music of Mad Men Soundtrack. I never knew Roald Dhal wrote the screen play for the film.
It’s 14:14. You haven’t got too long until you can make your great escape. A beautiful and exciting weekend beckons you. Thoroughly enjoy all the fabulous music tonight and the rugby tomorrow. I’ll be keeping everything crossed for you as well {} xx
Take the greatest care of yourself my wonderful one. Rest well, take it gently, and have tons of fun for both of us {} xxx
I love you so much and this phone is starting to as well. The old phone is still with it. Always will be. I’m hugging you like the very last time {} xxxx
It’s 15:00, the weather’s horrendous. The rain and wind have picked up. Get home safely my lovely. I hope it won’t be long until you can settle in for the night {} xxx
I’m going to shower and then I’m going to watch North by Northwest. I have the urge to. It’s the first time since we watched it together…
It’s 17:44. I just needed to close the window because wind and curtain toppled pink paradise over. I thought of you. My poor thing. I’m keeping everything crossed you might not need to go out in it tonight. If you do, get there and back safely {} xx
I am enjoying North by Northwest with Lunar. He’s just escaped after the stabbing.
18:00. They’ve just met on the train. He’s now ordered a Gibson. It has made me beam. I was worried in case I’d be upset.
18:11. It’s the moment you wrote to me {} xx
It’s 19:56. I’ve just finished watching. It’s a brilliant film. Despite seeing it so many times, the final scene is still nail-biting. I’m so happy to know that I can watch it and think of you with joy {} xxx
I hope you’re nice and warm and comfy, and enjoying totp. I wish I could join you. I’ve just had a peek and it’s The Bee Gees’ How Deep is Your Love. It’s 20:10. It reminded me of Jacob Collier’s emotional cover of it in Fort Lauderdale. I forgot to ask you for your thoughts. I think it’s so beautiful, especially when the audience sings with him. I’m listening to it right now and it’s making me cry. It just hits. It’s 20:20. I hope you love it too {} xxx
I imagine you’re probably shattered. Rest, rest and rest my lovely. Have the most gorgeous evening with your amazing meal and all the fabulous music. Thoroughly enjoy it for me too, then sleep well with sweet dreams for you and for me {} xxx
I love you my sweetest sweetheart, and I’m hugging you like the very last time again {} xxxx