Who’s Electric…
30th January 2026
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
How are you my lovely? How has your week been? I really hope you’re okay and keeping well, and you’ve had a great week. I’m keeping everything crossed it’s not too full on at the moment {} xxx
I was relieved storm Chandra passed quickly, and you didn’t have to drive back home in it on Tuesday. It’s been wonderful having the warm moments with sunshine as well.
It’s 16:44. I imagine you’ll be home very soon. I really hope you’re not too exhausted my lovely. You’ll soon be able to completely switch off, relax and rest with all the fabulous music. I can’t tell you how happy and excited I am, that you’ll be enjoying magical evening with The Who. Yay!! Absolutely brilliant!! {} xx
Someone mentioned wild garlic, and I thought of you xx I imagine you’ll be looking forward to seeing and savouring them again. The ones you’d foraged years ago looked amazing.
It’s great dip returns tonight. I’m not sure if I can watch it. If not then tomorrow. Thoroughly enjoy visiting gorgeous Saint Marie my lovely. I’ll join you soon xx
I’m also looking forward to watching the new series of Bridgerton. Despite my crashes, I’m so glad I can still escape with something to watch. I desperately need it. It’s been such a challenging and difficult month.
I watched My Lady Jane, which is a series set in the Tudor period. I think you might enjoy it. It’s fresh, witty, fun and completely unexpected. I was going to say there hasn’t been anything like it, but then Black Adder just came to mind. My favourite will always be Black Adder Goes Forth. Which is your favourite?
There were some cool contemporary covers in My Lady Jane. Dreamer by Katy J Pearson and She’s Not There by Griff were two of them. What do you think? I hope you enjoy them my precious sweetheart {} xxx
I watched Gaslight today. I remembered seeing it at The Crescent, and then telling you about it. I remember Metamorphosis as well. Ingrid Bergman’s great in Gaslight. Yes, it’s so easy to be gaslit, and terrifying as well. With everything that’s coming up regarding my past, it felt very apt.
My brain’s heavily working on the predator. It’s been an extremely tough and draining week, but my system has finally calmed down after my realisations. I’ve been a complete mess and really struggled.
It’s the first time I’m talking about him properly in therapy. It’s taken me seventeen years. My therapist asked who the perpetrator was, and I said that he turned out to be exactly like my dad. I saw him as a father until I knew the truth. It has been just as damaging as my time with my family. The deception made it far worse.
For me, a father is someone who is there for their child. My dad never was. I thought the perpetrator was, but he didn’t care about what happened to me either. It was just about him and his needs, same as my dad.
I’ve started writing about him, but I haven’t been able to finish it. Writing is still very difficult. Brain hasn’t fully gone back to how it was last year. I have deteriorated, but I haven’t had a chance to fully rest. I haven’t had any peace.
The mystery regarding my face cleanser has been solved, and the experience has been more than just about my face. There was also another realisation regarding my triggered states with you. Please forgive me. I had no idea at all. I’ve written about it in Changing Faces, which follows {} xxx
I sadly need to be quiet. I really hope with my system being calmer now, I can finally sleep, rest and recharge properly. I hope I’ll be well enough for my haircut next week. Hair’s crying their heart out. They’ve been neglected for far too long.
It’s 18:18. I hope it’s not long until you can fully settle in for the evening my lovely. I’m keeping everything crossed you’re not caught out in the rain {}
Take it gently and very restfully, and enjoy the most gorgeous, fun, delicious and relaxing weekend. Give yourself lots of love, care, pampering and special delights for me {} xxx
Thoroughly enjoy The Who at the Electric Proms and beyond, and enjoy every magic moment for me too. It was so wonderful to feel that joy and excitement for you, when I saw they’re going to join you today. I’m feeling it again. Nothing has been lost {} xxx
Sleep well and peacefully my precious starshine, with sweet dreams for both of us. I love you and I’m hugging you with all my might, along with lots of kisses. Rest well {} xxxx
It’s 19.55. I just put totp on. It’s Blur with Tender. Beautiful! I hope you’re happily chilling with it as well my lovely {} xxx