Wondrous Birds…
17th January 2025
Hello my most beautiful and precious starshine,
How are you my lovely? I really hope you’re okay and you’ve been able to take everything at your own pace. I hope you’ve had time to relax as well {} xxx
It’s 18:00, your special party will be starting. Thoroughly enjoy every fun and fabulous track for me too. If you spent the evening with David Bowie last night, I hope you loved it {} xx
It’s still a bit stressful regarding my face cleanser. They sent me the batch that I can’t use, and said that’s all they have. They’re checking at their end. The ingredients are completely different to their website, and to the tester they sent me.
Thankfully I got the first unusable bottle at the end of December, before they got their new formula. The batch is exactly the same as the one they sent. They do have the one I can use, it just depends on whether they can send it to me. I’m going to see if I can buy some samples from them. It would keep me going for a while.
I have run out of options. The other sensitive cream they had caused another severe allergic reaction, swollen tongue and immune system going into overdrive. It was either the soy oil or the rice bran oil. My body never reacted this badly before. I don’t know if it’s because of Long COVID.
Relying on just the one thing is terrifying. I will need to try and make something. I tried my face oil as an oil cleanser. It worked great for one day, but then it was too drying. I think my skin needs glycerine.
I found a simple recipe that uses manuka honey, glycerine and distilled water. I’ll try it. I need to. I’ll patch test it away from my face at first.
I wish my skin and immune system weren’t so sensitive and reactive. My whole body’s fucked up isn’t it?!!
With all of this, I haven’t been able to rest. I still haven’t written the belated Christmas messages. My brain is still struggling. I need to collect my night guard on Tuesday. I need to completely rest tomorrow and Monday.
On a more positive note, I woke up to the chorus of birds singing their sweet hearts out this morning. It was so beautiful and the perfect wake up call.
I quickly took this photo of the blue tit on Wednesday. I did think of you {} xx I know it’s extremely unlikely, but I wondered if it was the same blue tit who flew into the house last year.
It’s 20:20. I needed to rest. Speaking of birds, I never even knew flightless parrots existed. I imagine you do. The great news is, for the first time in four years, kākāpō are breeding again in New Zealand. There are only 236 of them. Here’s a funny clip with Stephen Fry and zoologist Mark Carwardine’s encounter with a kākāpō.
I still need to tell you about L-arginine, the supplement I’m taking. Next time. It is working. Fingers crossed, I can get back to how I was before last year’s medical appointments. I need proper rest though. I’m still at my limit. I feel like this panda trying to clear their space.
I’m going to leave you with Traffic Lights by Flea featuring Thom Yorke. I hope you enjoy it as well my lovely {} xx
Take the greatest care of yourself my precious sweetheart, and take it gently. Enjoy the rest of your beautiful and chilled evening, and thoroughly enjoy making sweet soul music for me as well {} xxx
With my trip to the dentist and therapy, I sadly do need to be quiet, but I’ll write as soon as I can. It’ll be my first outing since my surgery in October.
Please give yourself lots of love, care and kindness for me too. I love you and I’m hugging you extremely tightly. Rest, then sleep well my lovely, with the sweetest of dreams for both of us {} xxxx
It’s 21:21. I’ve just finished posting this to you. Night, night, and sleep tight my wonderful one {} xxx Wondrous Place by Billy Fury is playing in my head.